Maybe I should go ahead and continue my Twilight tribute. This one's dedicated to Eclipse.
The last movie ended with Edward proposing to Bella, where she sighs in shock. This movie begins with him proposing over and over.
The plot of this one is the newborn army that Victoria, mate of the slain James from Twilight, is organizing to kill Bella. She creates various vamps out of runaways, and other assorted teenagers. Her first victim is Riley, leader of the army, (well played by actor Xavier Samuel).
Then there's a Victoria spotting (now played by Bryce Dallas Howard) and the cullens are ready to chase after her and catch her. However they are unsuccessful. Edward, sensing this danger, gives Bella plane tickets for Florida, Jacksonville specifically to see her mother, plus he tags along. Much to the dismay of Charlie, Bella's father. Edward hides this fact about the slaughters in Seattle, prompting Jacob to tell her about it. The rest of the movie is very enjoyable so watch it...The biggest two finales are yet to come. Breaking Dawn Parts 1 and 2.
I will get back to my Twilight saga tribute on my next post. However I believe I should write about the funk I've been in. Recovery isn't all puppy dogs, rainbows and purring kittens.
When the holidays ended, I sort of fell back into a depressed state, slacking off on meetings because I had to be careful with gas. Plus a back injury that made me crave narcotics wasn't helping. My hours got cut, and I had to put every bit of intestinal fortitude into finishing my step 4 paperwork. My sponsor and I are going over it on Saturday.
I'm not in a halfway house anymore. I have been out of one almost a year and a half now. I'm living at a friend's house. The real world can be frightening when you're in a funk. My mom is ill and frail. I think about her every day. But life on life's terms isn't as bad as it could be, so I'm gonna live in the moment today, and try to get more followers on this blog. Plus I might benefit from helping someone else. My sponsor says I might be ready to sponsor someone after we go over my fearless moral inventory (step 4).
The next movie/book, New Moon is one of my favorites b/c it speaks on love and loss, plus reuniting, sacrificing danger to save the love of her life, Edward.
New Moon begins w/Bella going to school and her literature class is studying Romeo and Juliet. Edward introduces the Volturi during class and the teacher makes him recite the sililoquy of Romeo's last words to Juliet. Then at the Cullen house Edward speaks more of the Volturi, the closest thing to Royalty for vampires.
Then comes the birthday party for Bella, who thinks she's growing older by the minute. Of course she wants to be changed to a vampire by Edward, who wants her to remain human.
The birthday party begins afterward, and when Bella opens a gift she gets a papercut. Blood drops to the floor and Jasper, the youngest of all the Cullens vampire wise, smells it and has a major moment of weakness. This leads to Edward and the Cullens leaving Forks and Edward lies to Bella that he doesn't want her to come with them. This leaves Bella in a major depression, describing the situation "as if a huge hole was punched into her chest. He makes her promise not to do anything reckless, which leads to her reckless behavior which in turn, makes her see visions of him and hearing his voice.
During this time she has befriended Jacob, who has gone through struggles of his own, and he leaves Bella as well. In addition, James's mate, Victoria wants to kill Bella because Edward caused the death of her mate.
In her search for the visions, which she is missing, she encounters Laurent in the meadow, which is now dried up, no flowers in bloom. Laurent, who was helpful in the last movie, wants to kill Bella because of her fragrant, tasty blood. I don't want to give too much away, but the wolves make their first appearance here.
Eventually Bella decides to jump off of a cliff, instead of diving like the wolf pack, with Victoria in hot persuit. She jumps, and almost drowns. All of this leads up to Alice visiting the Swan residence. And on top of that Edward, whom Rosalie told about the jump, has told Edward that Bella died. Edward in turn wants to die too, so he visits the Volturi, begging them to kill him. They refuse, so he comes up with a plan to show himself during a festival in Voltura. That's when the excitement really begins... The last clip from New Moon I'm gonna show is this one.
Not the actual background music the movie used but close enough. This movie was special to me because it spoke of love, love lost, utter despair, and reuniting, albeit some danger is present after the reunion. But this movie is worth watching, especially if you're a love story afficionado.
Back in early 2009 I was in the middle of spending my tax money. My aunt and I would talk about many subjects on the phone. One particular topic came up.
My aunt Lynn was talking about how much she enjoyed reading the Twilight saga. I said "Oh I saw pictures of that Edward Cullen guy but what makes it so special? She told me "Just start reading it, you'll see." So I went to Wally World and bought all of the books.
I started reading and couldn't put it down.
Basically Twilight is about a young girl, Bella Swan, who moves up to the rainy Washington town of Forks. Her father lives up there and is the chief of police. She reconnects w/her childhood friend Jacob Black and gets the old red truck he worked on. The first day of school Bella meets some new classmates. She's the type who normally keeps to herself but come lunch period she notices a special group of students that have a unique pale look...The Cullens. Then Edward Cullen walks into the lunchroom and Bella is magnetically drawn to him. Here's a scene from the movie:
Anyhow, again, she sees him in class. Unbeknownst to Bella Edward gets of whiff of her scent. The most delectable blood he's ever smelled.
Anyhow they finally have their first talk, and she's about to leave school. She notices Edward's staring at her, and for a very good reason. His psychically gifted adopted sister Alice predicted that she was in danger.
She begins to suspect that there's something to this guy that is not natural. Fast forward later, she's in Port Angeles with two classmates and instead of trying on prom dresses she picks up a book at the local Quiluete tribe bookstore on "The cold ones". She gets intercepted by some unsavory characters who most probably have gang rape on their mind. Edward to the rescue again. He saves her life, and there's a local murder by unsavory vamps on a human that Bella's father knew. Bella checks out the book she got earlier, leading to another favorite scene of mine...Her discovery that Edward is a vampire.
It gets even better. As seen here:
I really can relate to Bella. She's clumsy, and she never felt "normal" I think that's why many of those with alcoholism and/or addiction related issues have loved this movie so much. Bella being the hopeless romantic, and Edward, who has fallen in love with her are a throwback to the classic novels of yesteryear. I'm not going to post anymore scenes, I'm gonna say watch it because it has elements of love, sacrifice, a sense of belonging to a group of people that one can be themself around.
This week has been a slump. I have had to live with back pain as well as my hours at work being cut. I haven't filed a workman's comp for fear of being fired. Been in the bed a lot glued to the heating pad. Being careful w/what I'm taking for pain.
At least I'm still sober, I guess that's something.
I can only live life in the moment. I can't even project what's next. And maybe someday I'll have followers on this blog.. I do want to help others w/alcoholism and addiction problems.
All I can do is stay in the moment and pray, realize I'm powerless over everything.
My mom is still in the hospital and I've been concerned about her health. She deteriorated a few weeks ago and thought I was gonna lose her. Self pity is a bitch. But this, folks, is where I'm at. This too, shall pass. I hope that slogan is true.
The Land Where I'm From.
Well there's a reason for my title. I have always felt like an oddball. I was a mousy high school girl who quit in the middle of my Sophomore year. Two years later I took my GED exam and passed giving me a High School Equivelency certificate.
I was a shy kid, really shy. My first high school crush used to flirt w/me in a sarcastic way and I took it as pure insult. I was pathetic and ran to my counselor.
I had one or two friends in high school. I looked down at the floor while walking through the halls. My nose got made fun of a lot. It was the aftermath of the accident when my little brother and I were playing catch. I had told him to throw the ball faster...well he certainly did! I had a fat bulbous bumpy nose. (two years later, I had a nose job). My moods went up and down plus I isolated. This was years before I discovered alcohol.
My world that I lived in was the land of Sci Fi movies and TV. Looking back at my early teen years it was when my parents when they were going through a divorce
. Dad used to go to singles clubs and party. Mom started embracing Jesus and the wacko church she started to attend. ( I would later lose my virginity to a crush on a boy I liked at the same church! Fancy that.). At the age of eighteen. Back at the age of fourteen when my lit class went to see Romeo and Juliet at the theatre I sat with my teacher and her boyfriend.
I was continuing to be taken to shrinks, and the one I saw told me I was a manic depressive.This was a fact, a fact I considered a harsh judgment. And shame with this kinda subject just made things worse.
Navigating life's stormy waters during the late 70's, I was a lost soul. Between the Jesus freaks that came to counsel me and the stigma of mental illness,I knew that something had to change. And in a few years it would.
