My take on what is known as Dope Sickness"

The year: 1995. My future husband and I were at the Emergency room, a place I hated w/a passion. Several Pelvic exams later and an Ultrasound, two cysts were found on my ovaries. One was huge, at first they thought I had appendicitis. My white cell count was climbing. Turned out I had to have surgery, and they were also gonna look for endometreosis. I was discharged w/a pain pill perscrption of Lortabs and given 5 percocets to go. They had me take one of the percocets and a cup of water to wash it down with. I was a boozer not a pill junkie, or so I thought.

30 minutes later I was with my boyfriend, when a sweet fuzzy warm floating feeling came over me. It was the birth of my cross addiction. Between 1995 and June 2011, I was chasing that seductive high by doctor shopping, ER hopping, and when I didn't have it?
 A horrible deathly virus-like state known as dope sickness. Opiates are nothing to mess with. I would lay for days after calling in sick at work w/a "virus." I had no strength and it had to be treated with diarrhea meds, and nausea medication.

Today, I'm grateful I don't have to live like that. If you are chasing that state of mind, I suggest you get help. Booze is my main drug of choice but opiates are a seductive second. I've known many in the program of Narcotics anonymous who went back out and died. Vigilance is key. There's nmore behind my struggles in life, but this was on my mind today...
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