The Land of the "Not Quite Right"

 The Land Where I'm From. Well there's a reason for my title. I have always felt like an oddball. I was a mousy high school girl who quit in the middle of my Sophomore year. Two years later I took my GED exam and passed giving me a High School Equivelency certificate. I was a shy kid, really shy. My first high school crush used to flirt w/me in a sarcastic way and I took it as pure insult. I was pathetic and ran to my counselor.

I had one or two friends in high school. I looked down at the floor while walking through the halls. My nose got made fun of a lot. It was the aftermath of the accident when my little brother and I were playing catch. I had told him to throw the ball faster...well he certainly did! I had a fat bulbous bumpy nose. (two years later, I had a nose job). My moods went up and down plus I isolated. This was years before I discovered alcohol. My world that I lived in was the land of Sci Fi movies and TV. Looking back at my early teen years it was when my parents when they were going through a divorce

. Dad used to go to singles clubs and party. Mom started embracing Jesus and the wacko church she started to attend. ( I would later lose my virginity to a crush on a boy I liked at the same church! Fancy that.). At the age of eighteen. Back at the age of fourteen when my lit class went to see Romeo and Juliet at the theatre I sat with my teacher and her boyfriend.

 I was continuing to be taken to shrinks, and the one I saw told me I was a manic depressive.This was a fact, a fact I considered a harsh judgment. And shame with this kinda subject just made things worse. Navigating life's stormy waters during the late 70's, I was a lost soul. Between the Jesus freaks that came to counsel me and the stigma of mental illness,I knew that something had to change. And in a few years it would.

 More will be revealed...