Before I go to the subject, I want to to say that I have never truly understood the word "normal". I saw and still see myself as the family weirdo. When I turned 14, my first love was Luke Skywalker. I went on to digest every sci-show and movies, books that I could get my hands on.
Fast forward to 2008. I had gone through a divorce, and had to deal w/my addictions. Through the most recent years it was vampire and fantasy TV shows/movies. Being the brooding dark poet type and about to enter the most addictive phase of my life ( which I'm free from now..And grateful)
I was into Buffy, Angel, and then the Twilight saga came out. I couldn't get enough. I have always felt sympathetic towards these creatures. And everything vampire I watched. I still enjoy it.
I believe there's a metaphoric parallel between these lonely, romantic creatures of the night ( Ok the Cullens were able to be out during the day as well.) and many who have alcohol/ addiction problems. Blood is a life giving force, and that's why in my opinion they seek it. Like an addiction. They have to feed their addiction and survive. I know it's a weird take on the genre, but that's why I love it.
I'm sober now 14 months almost and not turning back..I have too much to live for.
But I still enjoy my Vampire, Fantasy, and Sci Fi. I'm embracing who I am without shame. (Well for the most part my alcoholism caused some some weird behavior from 2010-2011.)
More will be revealed....
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